The conclusion of Therapy Quest 2020 + Sit & Write #34

Greetings, friends!

I'm happy to report that I'm almost a month into working with my new therapist and I love her. I was starting to think I'd never find someone to work with--those of you who've been reading these newsletters for the last 7 months or so know how arduous this process has been. It turned out the real trick was giving up on finding someone covered by my insurance, and seeking a referral from a friend for a queer therapist with a sliding scale.

I really wanted to believe that my therapist's identity didn't matter, that a competent therapist would be able to set all that aside and just see me as a regular person with regular baggage. Apparently, that isn't possible, or at least, wasn't possible for me in the place I live with the insurance I have. I'm annoyed, obviously, about the time, money, and effort I poured into the first 3 failed therapeutic relationships. But something I'm working on with this new queer therapist is making space for my resentments. I think I've been…